Monday, November 28, 2005
Hiya. Yepp. Me again. DUH. it IS my blog.okay...RANDOM!!!! I feel slightly chirpy-er today...no idea why. Jus finished watching 'the Golden Girls'. hah. You must be wondering why. I don't exactly know either, boredom drives you to do WEIRD things...
spent the whole morning reading Inuyasha fanfiction. finished studying the 2nd chapter of the history book. what's left is chinese and lit. I'm so confused right now... okay, maybe not confused per se but my brain's all mussed up. sigh... haven't been exposed to maths for awhile... not solving problems has taken its toll on me... i'm going senile. I don't even know why i'm writing this crap.
oh wells, on to the next topic. - not like we had one before.
learnt a few new words yesterday. - craptacularcraptasticcrapalanche-
kind of describes how i feel today. like crap.
i guess i feel like crap every day, pfft no diff.
Although the year end holiday have started this doesn't feel like it. at all.
since november the 4th, i've been admitted into hospital, had my appendix removed, then had another op to remove excess pus that had collected and formed a buble, missed the chance to go bungee jumping in new zealand, skipped three weeks of softball training(actually, 4) and am stuck at home. WTH?! that is most definitely the most un-ideal holiday ever. - you see? horrible grammar, horrible vocabulary... I'M DYING!!!! - as it is quite evident in this post i'm still feeling realli random. SIGH
mental block.
momentarily loss of any sane thoughts.
nothing to say.
ok. now i remember.
Have you ever felt like you have different sides to yourself? Like in church you're one person, in school your another, at home you're another, and outside, you're another?You are aware of the changes in your personality, the way you act, around different groups of people but you can't do anyting about it. It comes naturally. I know i have. It's so weird, yet it feels so right. Okay, i'm not talking sense... It's ... inexplicable. The constant changes in my attitude have left me baffled, confused, messed up. I don't know who i really am anymore. All i know is that those 'sides' are not the real me. It's sad, really. I don't think I'm alone either. The people around me. I 've seen them with diffferent groups of people and they act differently. Is this apparent in ALL humans? Why are we like that? There's just so many questions left unanswered. WHY?
SIGH. i guess each of us has a different answer.
-HORRIBLE GRAMMAR-
I think i'll stop here... to confused to carry on.
P.S. just found out that blogspot can't publish japanese. wtfh. yea. whatever.
ja!
7:23 PM
