Thursday, July 27, 2006
i haven't blogged in YEARS! hahahaha. i'm getting lazy...IER. owells. which would also explain why i'm growing FAT...TER. hahs me n' my '...' infatuation. hmm nahs. some pigs have it worse. fortunately i am NO PIG. i am a MONKEY. so there. this post has NO REAL TOPIC. actually it HAS but i've forgotten what i was supposed to rant about. rarrh.
think.
think.
think.
think.
ER... oh yeah. i was nominated for hadley v-capt. YEAH YEAH I KNOW. SURPRISING. you'd be going WTFong?! yeap. same reaction here. it was... a dark [duh] and DREARY night. shikaye was slaving over her homework infront of her computer[which ultimately caused her to NOT finish it.]. WHEN SUDDENLY the telephone... RIINGS.
"hello?"
"hi shikaye? this is [current capt] yeah umm are you interested in running for vice-capt o7'?"
*silence reigned. only to be broken by one EAR... BRAIN BURSTING THOUGHT*
-WHAT THE HELL?!-
" uh.. okay."
"really? okay good! hmm okay you ave to submit a write-up about yourself and what you hope to achieve for hadley it's due tomorrow yeah submit it to [hadley teacher in charge]. okay?"
"HUH. umm can i not run?"
"WHY? it's never too late!"
*me = PAISEH*
"oh.. okay.."
HENCE. she SLAVED over the *#@%$#!* write-up.
sighs.
sad huh. yeah. that was about... 2 weeks ago. voting is TOMORROW during assembly. hahs PHEW. LINDSAY LOHAN: TELL ME THAT IT'S OVER
i agree. tell me that it's over.
owell. even though i really don't think i'm gonna win, IF i do i shall try my best. what else CAN i do?
next was.... OH YAH RHD celebrations. it was a BLAAST! ahs so much fun. we had to wear 'ethnic costumes' to school. didn't really care though. ANYTHING was more comfortable than the stoopid school u. threw on a black converse shirt and jeans and VOILA. all set n' ready to go. hahs i wasn't booked! THANK GAWD. yeap but this yr's RHD wasn't as fun as last year's owell. ruici, huiling and i ponned 'BANGHRAROBICS' seriously. i'm sure you now why. souzy was boogeying on stage. NOT A PRETTY SIGHT. hahs ONCE AGAIN! THANK YOU GAWD! hahs i got miself some hennas cost me $10. wahah. it WAS for a good cause. yeap yeap. it's STILL HERE ON MY RIGHT ARM. hahs it rawks. I rawk. whee.
that was... last friday.
hahs i cried in class today. *RUN. RUN WHILE YOU STILL CAN. THIS POST HAS TAKEN A DROP FOR THE DEEP...ER...i think. ANYWHOO. RUN!*
it just... hit me. i guess. thank you angel [yes it's her NAME] for making me realise. she's left for china then heading back to SA. sigh. i miss her. she was the ONLY one who didn't pretend. she was REAL. i miss her. sighs. owells at least she'sback with her friends. while she was still around... nobody bothered to talk to her... or initiate a conversation. the only two were stumps and churros. i think i kinda neglected her as well. but we talked during recess. [okay. excuses.] at her farewell party however, everyone just played along. PRETENDED to care and their last goodbyes to her were all mechanical hugs and pre-scripted 'i-miss-you's. it's sad. it really is. that someone has to go before you realise she's nice and you should've treated her better. this wasn't realised by me. it was by stumps.
but the very same person who has realised this has failed to see that she herself has neglected members of the class who aren't as visually pleasing. i sit next to her in class. and we talk. and all of a sudden i just feel so angry for her. like everyone comes to school only to pretend. school's a masquerade. everyday, everyone hides behind this facade. and those who don't want to are left out. i guess it's BETTER THAT THEY ARE. but i just get SO SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SO PLASTIC. i don't WANT to come to school a different person. i want to be ME.
then again. i don't even know who i am anymore. i'm greatly influenced by friends. i'll admit that. i've become SO MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE OVER THE YEARS. i don't know WHO I AM. sad. it's depressing. it really is.
so stop acting.
masquerade. paper faces on parade. masquerade hide your face so the world can never find you
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